Sometimes its just hard work being a girl. Its one of those days where im feeling down, for no reason. Im sitting in the playcentre, roxiees playing and having a ball and im getting teary watching what i would call 'the perfect family' play together on the flying fox. I have no reason in the world to be down, life is perfect and nothing is bothering me .. Its just stupid hormones!
This 'perfect family' has a mum, a dad, a teenage girl and then 3 young children who are all perfectly, perfect! Im making the assumption that they have adopted at least one of the kids as all kids are calling them mum and dad, and their skin colours arent very matching!! Beig adoptive parents makes then even more perfect!!! The mum and dad are chasing their perfectly perfect kids around the play centre and playing perfectly perfect family games. Im watching roxiee and feeling bad for yelling at her thismorning, even though, to be fair, she DID call me a 'jurk' and probably did deserve to have some hards words spoken to her!! But, i bet the perfectly perfect parents dont yell at their perfectly perfect kids.
I think i know why im a little down, roxiee is pushing buttons lately, she is testing limits and is therefor getting in trouble often, and then im judging myself as a bad parent for yelling at her, or being too harsh with a punishment. By punsihment - im talking a 3 minute stint in our 'time-out' .. Whoa, badass!!
Currently shes sitting on a carousel, in the middle of the playcentre, demanding coins for a ride. I have coins, of course. But i have told her 8 times in the space of 3 minutes, that i gave all my coins to the lady to get into the playcentre, that there are LOTS of things to do here that dont require coins, and she will not be having a ride. She sulks, i walk off, i sit back down, she screammmmmmms... "I WANT COINSSSSS" .. The perfectly perfect parents stop their family picnic to look at my reaction ..
Im ready to take my little brat home, but i DESPERATELY want to see the perfectly perfect parents kids have a tantrum or something similar .. Or perhaps they will offer to adopt roxiee .. Hmm ..
~ we may not have it all together, but together we have it all ~
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Meh
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Lily was a NIGHTMARE when we first moved here! went on for over a month she turned into the biggest bitch I couldnt stand her, (you prob remember some of my posts in BC), maybe roxiee still in holiday mode like Lily was? Dont let the perfectly perfect family take her cause she'll come good :) PS miss ur face
You know, I feel this way sometimes - being a single parent is tough & when I see the happy nuclear families I wonder if somehow my gorgeous boy is missing out in life because his Mum & Dad couldn't make their marriage work.
But then I look at Dex and I see such a unique child - he doesn't follow the other kids, he leads. He's smart and he's independent - but he's also incredibly sweet & nurturing, the kid most likely to help the under-dog and bring home the wounded animal.
So I must be doing something right. And I would rather that he be the kind of child who questions, who knows what he wants & is willing to ask for it, who speaks his mind - and who is just a little bit left of centre and won't ever be the type to follow the crowd.
And I think that's what you need to remember about your darling kids - they have personality, they have strength and they are probably going to be far better equipped to deal with all the crap that life is going to throw them some day than the child that grew up in the perfectly perfect family. Testing boundaries, speaking their minds & being allowed to develop their own personality is what makes children grow into great, resilient, capable adults - so you are doing a great job, Mum. Never forget that :)
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